Trust in Thee

    There are moments I feel as though the Lord is whispering my name. I can close my eyes to the world and get lost in the security of His presence. I can be sure of trusting Him with my worries, doubts, fears, woes, sorrows, joys, and loved ones. A time where I can leave everything to Him and simply rest in the quietness of His Holiness. These moments are precious, and as I grow older I find myself flying straight into His arms of tranquility, so that He may sanctify, purify, and renew my seemingly wilting spirit. When I go to Him, there is such inexpressible joy. Such a motivation to continue striving to be my best for Him, to be in accordance with His commandments. The more we are near Him, with Him, get to  know Him the more I find myself caught up in His delights, His joys, His sorrows, His passions, His cares. With time I have discovered how much God is present in one's daily life, He is on a moment to moment basis with us. Always knowing our thoughts, intentions, interests, distractions, where and why we are led astray etc. I have found I must not only be aware of this but rather to consider how my actions, words, thoughts, and intentions affect Him. He is present forever present and all knowing of our real selves, human nature and all: everyday, and all and day for our entire lives. I know He must really love me if He's willing to stick around and hear my mind's ramblings day in and day out! But boy, He wants to not only be the Lord's of our lives, our Counselor, Almighty King, Prince of Peace, Majestic Creator, Redeemer, Father, Great Physician and Healer (and so much more), but our constant companion. He goes through everything with us, offering always to carry that which we cannot on our own. This has been very difficult to embrace, practice in regular life. But just as any other discipline opening oneself to the Lord in this way is very special, rewarding, comforting, encouraging, and truly helps grow one's unique and unfathomable relationship with the Lord. Besides this, it allows for us to be more accessible to God. In a sense more useful. Trusting Him in the simplest helps prepare to trust Him in the seemingly impossible. I long for this area of my relationship with Him to continue growing. For now I turn to Him to help me manage time my, not get frustrated with my slow school bus driver, pick out a modest outfit, say a kind word to my neighbor, help my dad out with a project, offer to clean for my Ma, or listen to a concern, spend time listening to Grammy's stories when I have anatomy homework to do, even finding creative ways to remind myself to return my library books. These are small things, but if we cannot handle the minute, how are we ever to take on whatever is to come. I have the same mindset for not only basics of life, and in rejoicing for joys, but also of enduring trials and suffering. I've found that sometimes when we do not understand "why" it is because God is saying we don't need to know, or because we must trust that He knows the plans He has for us. That He is readying us for what's to come. That's why I find it so crucial to devote myself to His will. To be, at every moment, aware and in complete acknowledgement of His eternal presence.
    I am so thankful that He never gives us that which we cannot handle (1 Cor 10:13), even though some times it is impossible to persevere if He is not with us. Those lessons are important as well, my dad has a quote that He used to have hanging in his pastors study in CA, that says, "Attempt something so impossible that unless God intervenes in it, it is bound to fail.", (I think it's a paraphrase of John Haggai's original quote).
    Like I've said before, one of my greatest hopes to be able to say that I truly love God with all my mind, body, and soul. But these cannot happen over night, no it will take a life time. For I am human, and I must die to my old nature everyday, and surrender to Christ, His example, and teachings. Only a pure mind, a pure body, and pure soul can genuinely love Christ. Purity takes not only forgiveness, redemption, salvation, surrender but sanctification which is yet another gift from God. Sanctification is an eternal process, but it's so worth it. The Lord humbles me always, reminding me of how Christ intercedes on our behalf. But oh how I long for the day when I will look into my Saviors loving face and know that I was and forever will be His.

"Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee: because he trusteth in Thee." Isaiah 26:3